29.10.2008 - Depressed, rainy night

Depressed, rainy night
    Rainy day, again. Weather always influnce my emotions. Often feel depressed on such time.
    Something happened this noon, i should never forgive myself. Beauty is only skin deep. Something only looks beautiful from afar.  Too close contact make thee see the flaw. Originally  I was supposed to attend the routine meetings, but too gloomy the heart at that time made me only want to stay at bed and relax.    Still have lessons at night. Two sessions of class let me forget the unhappy things totally. However, now at home again, I cannot find joy now. Even a bowl of brown sugar water cannot release the depressed feeling.
   Tomorrow, hope it is a sun shinning weather.